An illustration of dream intensity: how dreaming can amplify our thoughts and affect our personality

I was always a dreamer as long as I can remember. Just as I had “beautiful dreams” when I was a child, I used to have “nightmares” also. I can even say that my biggest phobia started in my dreams. My mom scared my brother in different and creative ways to keep his exploding energy under control. She used to say “The teacher is coming, sleep now. quick!” Or she would say “do such and blah, or I’ll give you to spiders.” My brother was not afraid because he was very young, but I was old enough to understand. That’s what my mother’s explained sadly years after. I said her not to be sad when I heard it later. Maybe this way is meant for me.

Growing a phobia in dreams

For a long time in my dreams, I saw my mother giving me to spiders. And this fear grew so far that I couldn’t even pronounce the word “spider” when I came to my twenties. Just by seeing a tiny tiny spider, I was locked in and an unbearable itch was starting on my legs.

I took some steps to solve this phobia when I was 24 years old, and here I am, thanks to the help of an ancient and powerful plant medicine, I have now completely overcome it. There is not a single grain left of it. It is the dissolution of my fear that strikes me most. I used to say to myself that I will go to the grave with this fear. It wasn’t like that at all. As we solve and heal the wounds in some parts of the subconscious, it reflects on our daily lives. But the spider and dissolving of this arachnophobia, is the subject of another story. I just wanted to illustrate how some dreams can be so intense.

Some people solve the difficulties and wounds in their lives by experiencing them first hand. Some discover who they are through emotions and feelings. Some people are so empathetic that they sort and figure things out in their minds in the minute the event occurs.

I dream to solve things.

In my dreams, I unravel my fears and watch what I suppress. I am cleansed, blessed and approved. I explore stuff. I find strength to act and to change. Sometimes I just watch and learn. And who knows what else I will do.

I am writing this article as an introduction of who I am to all scout dreamers like me. So that they don’t feel lonely. Or I don’t know so that I don’t feel lonely. One thing I know is that dreaming is, I mean, it is like.. Anyway, I couldn’t connect to the end.

As you can see, it’s not that easy to fuss about dreams. I know that, but I still take this path. I will try to share the effects of my personal experiences and what I have learned in my dreams. Maybe, I will contradict to myself on the road. I don’t have any kind of concern to prove myself and my dreamtime experiences, I just intend to meet people who speak the same language as me.

So, for closing, here is an old and well known advice for beginners;

“Look at your hands now”

“Look at your hands in dreamtime”