Mood is fragile: a dream deduction for no reason
Last night, I saw one of those dreams that leave emotional traces. My dream was about friendships broken years ago. My best friend in the village where I spent my childhood stopped seeing me after he got married. He did not inform me about this, but it was obvious since his behavior towards me changed radically. My best friend at college also broke the bonds between us after moving to France. As opposed to the former breakup, he actually told me that he doesn’t want to stay friends anymore.
Naturally, my dream combined these two patterns and created me a scenario which includes a college friend who lives in the village. This friend was leaving me as usual. I was wandering in pain through the over crowded streets of the village. Then it clicked. It was a dream. Because normally, there wouldn’t be that amount of people on the streets of such a small village. When I figured this out, my pain disappeared instantly. I did not need to suffer anymore; because I was going to wake up regardless. I smiled with this feeling at the first person I came across and she winked at me. I was surely in dreamland and I was fully conscious, then I suddenly woke up.
Last summer, I actually broke the ice between me and my friend in the village, thanks to a feast. Maybe we will never be as close as we used to be, but at least there are no hurt feelings anymore. We were both in a drunk, energetic and peaceful state.
My friend from college had informed me that he cut off friendship ties with me, as you’d recall. That morning, when I woke up from that dream, a feeling arose in me. I thought, “I hope he’s okay.” I looked at our photos and manufactured some nostalgia. He had always complained that I didn’t find a proper match for him. Since then I met somebody just right for him. I found the person he was searching for, but I can’t introduce them.
Few days ago, another close friend called me. He and his wife broke up and he had planned getting old together with her. Words hardly left my mouth for the first couple of minutes. Separation not only confuses people emotionally, but also destroys all of their plans. After all, one can’t help but say “How about our plans? We were going to set our things up, walk away from this lifestyle and spend more time with each other, what happened?”
We forget our loved ones in the rush of daily life. We forget that we have to spare time for them, while also creating time for ourselves. We forget that we shouldn’t hurt each other that much. Unfortunately, we cannot unsay some of the words we say but that’s what forgiveness is all about. It exists so that the words which can never be taken back will not stay there; untouched, rotten and permanent.
I wish that the things that need to be said would be said. Those that need to be forgiven would be forgiven. Let there be nothing inexcusable in the world. Nobody’s ego has to be that proud. It does not have to be so difficult to please someone. A humble advice to everyone: put down your guards first and show your hearts to each other. So I cast the spell: may love win again!